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(no subject) [Jul. 4th, 2010|03:23 pm]

Cause I'm just too lazy to maintain 2 blogs at once. :(


Tumblr can post pictures easier. :)

Yeah but I'm not closing this blog entirely. I guess some stuff I would prefer to blog it here since lesser people know of this blog. pweee! :D
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emo nemo [Jul. 2nd, 2010|01:35 pm]
[Current Mood |relaxedrelaxed]

I think I'm someone who needs to work or at least have something to do and not just laze around in the house, staring at my computer and thinking of what to do next kind of person.


For the fact that I don't have to work today but everyone else is working is really kind of sad. Boooooo I wanna go K and it has been so long since the last time I went. And guess what, K is having promotion now $8 nett from 2-7pm okay! It's like a damn huge offer for K lovers. Okay so anyway, I wanted to go K alone today. I mean I think it's okay what nothing wrong with singing alone but eh I just woke up. =x Talked to Jasmin a little and her legs are hurting again. So in the end I decided to go see doc with her instead. :) I think my parents are really going to kill me for going out like everyday you know. It's like my money is depleting but my schedule is increasingly busy.

Okay I'm going out sooooon. :)
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<3 1807 [Jul. 1st, 2010|11:59 am]
[Current Mood |awakeawake]

I have been quite slack recently. No job for me today and tomorrow because I had just finished helping a client's accounts and now I'm waiting for my new schedule which will officially start next week. So currently, I'm slacking at home, contemplating if I should watch a movie with tyug since both of us are bored kid. BUT I'M QUITE BROKE and my pay is not here yet I wonder why. Bahhhhhh.

Took a half-day leave yesterday for Tanqianying. YES SHE'S BACK FROM UK! :D Totally miss her to the max. So I met up with her early before meeting the rest of 1807 because I am supposed to help her to surprise them. Okay actually the surprise kind of fail because while walking there, we met Junmin and Fengyi halfway. And after that saw Tujin, Dong and Xinjun. So in the end we only managed to surprised Xiangrui and Fred. Okay I mean the rest whom we met halfway also got a shocked of course. But it was meant to be like, everyone together then she appears in front of them. HAHA. Well, nevermind that, we still had lots of fun. :) It's like I totally love that bunch of kids. Really never fail to make me laugh. Being with them, I feel like a kid too! Don't have to think of other stressful things and our topics will never revolve around future, studies, internship, 2nd major, GPA, yada yada. Just suan each other, act like a retard, not caring if the world's gonna explode.


Anyway, I'm having a new perspective to life! (or at least trying to have)
I know everyone of you made sense when y'all said that the only thing we can do now is to look forward and make the best out of the current situation. :) I know I understand just that I need time to adjust my emotions. hehe but yah I guess it's the best for now so I MUST NOT LOSE FAITH. Wheeeeeeeeeee.
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TGIF! [Jun. 26th, 2010|01:02 am]
You wouldn't imagine how excited I am when Friday's reaching. Waking up early and catching that 845am bus are seriously not the things for me. :( I love to nua on the bed and just keep on sleepingggggggggg. NVM BECAUSE PAYDAY IS MOTIVATION! I spent A LOT in Taiwan, so now it's the time to earn them back (though the money I spent in tw are not mine =x).

Can't wait. I miss the sun so much. What's more this morning rained super heavily. I almost didn't know how to go to work because I had to walk a super long stretch of road before reaching office. No shelter, plus the pavement was flooded. How bad. And I made potato salad just now! Totally adopting a healthy lifestyle now. Have been sleeping quite early ever since I started working (and waking up early of course). I also have been eating healthily except for the KFC yesterday which I can't help it because Yuen never fail to tempt me. Hi Yuen, if you read this, we need to K soon. :(

Anyway, I finally done planning my timetable. Omg, I almost wanted to give up planning. It's really super troublesome when everything clashes and you don't want to have a too early lesson or a too late one, you want to have a 4 day week, you want to have a break in between to have lunch. Okay, can't have the best of ALL worlds I know. But human always tend to be greedy right? :( What's more now I may have to travel back home. :/

Life is fair only when you want it to be.
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hi singapore. [Jun. 20th, 2010|01:03 am]
[Current Mood |lethargiclethargic]

In order to prevent my blog from dying, I need to start blogging. :)

Just came back from Taiwan! :D Really nice to take a break and just enjoy yourself to the fullest. Like really stress free, with nothing to think of but eat and sleep and eat and sleep. Really love to look down from the plane's window. I saw how huge the world is, how tiny each of us is. Now that I'm back, I NEED TO START WORK. :( Though I really bought quite a lot of clothes from tw. =x 

I need to go for senior camp tomorrow omg. How I wish I can just sleep my day away. OKAY SHALL SLEEP NOW!
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Miss I-Can-Do-It [Jun. 5th, 2010|02:42 am]
[Current Mood |determineddetermined]

"Accept it and stop making yourself miserable."
"Believe in yourself."
"Stop wasting your life grieving."

Learnt it the hard way, the only way. Felt much better after pouring everything out. Right, it feels like you've lost everything. Everything that have been planned since. Everything that you have worked so hard for. And suddenly at this moment, you just feel... lost. Trying to find a direction, trying to find a way out of this whole maze, trying to make the best out of the current situation. I know I tend to compare and put myself at the losing end. But I can't seem to forget that Life isn't fair.

I know I should stop this unhealthy thinking. It's leading me nowhere. It makes me feel like a loser. 

I should deserve better.

After today I should no longer sink into this thinking of mine. I should plan and work towards a new goal in life. 

Thanks to all who were there, are there and will always be there for me me me. :)
Will TRY TRY TRY to have faith in myself once again.
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hi i'm back. [May. 27th, 2010|02:37 am]
[Current Mood |gloomygloomy]

Has been a long time since I updated this dead blog of mine ( no I'm not letting it dead of course). A summary of what happened this period are:

1. Back from tioman, bringing back wonderful memories and although I'm quite scared of fishes, I never regret trying something so different in my life! :D I'm glad that I went heh heh. It was the first time I saw coral reef, fishes, sword fish (as I claimed to be) and weird creatures beneath me. The feeling is really awesome, it feels like you are in another world. But of course, all these have caused me to see fishes everytime I closed my eyes. I wonder why HAHA.

2. Been actively trying to look for a job but I'm still kind of jobless now. I want an internship, but I know that there is no chance of getting. Seeing people around me having internship, it makes me wonder why things are so easy to some but not to me. Is this life or fate or did they work harder. Don't wish to think. Trying to lead an optimistic life, because no one knows what will happen in the future anyway. :)

3. Results are out, today. And I'm not checking till much later. Coward, not facing up to reality, low confidence, yada yada whatever. I just want to be ready. Give me more time to conquer the stupid phobia that I'm having now after sem 1. 

4. I feel that I'm kind of short-tempered lately. Not in the sense like I flare at others, but more of tend to be less understanding the people around me. I feel that sometimes, things are just too much, too much for me to handle.

5. Meeting up with friends and trying to catch up with life. People please occupy my time so that I can stop feeling so bored.

6. The freaking cut off point for hall next year is 17 omg. KILL ME.

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two lazy bums [May. 9th, 2010|03:09 pm]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

Yesterday night I was talking to Yuen, and we made a sudden decision to buy Koi today since I was craving for it. So she suggested to meet at 1230 before going. I was still asking her if she is able to wake up, for the fact that both of us were still awake and online at 4am. THEN this afternoon, at 1230, both of us were still in bed HAHAHA. But I immediately got up of bed, packed some of my stuff and had my lunch. After that I msged her but she didn't reply. So I bet she went back to sleep and true enough when I called her at 215. -.-

So in the end, we are meeting at tamp instead since I had to go off like around 6 for mother's day celebration. And we are settling for this quite nice bbt near tamp lib. :( SIGH. Go library also nua, go buy koi also nua, go shopping also nua. I think best is we just stay in bed the whole day. She is starting work soon so may not have the chance to meet her so frequently anymore! :( Boohooooooo.

Anyway, while I was packing my stuff, I chanced upon some photos of me and my cousin when we were young. OMG lah, I laughed like crazy. They are mad funny okay and quite cute :X Seriously miss the old days when you can just play and sleep and eat and do stupid stuff everyday. Days without deadlines, without troubles, without expectations and without worries are super enjoyable. 

Time flies time flies.
Okay I'm off to meet that Leech. :)
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back up plan! [May. 8th, 2010|02:35 am]
[Current Mood |listlesslistless]

YES! Finally moved the rest of my things out of hall! :D Argh, now I have to think of how to unpack them neatly so that papa will stop nagging about it. :( Went to watch backup plan in the afternoon with hall peeps! Quite a nice show although its kind of predictable I would say. But nonetheless, this kind of shows are always sweet and end with a happy ending. Eh, which is good because if they ended up not being together, I think I will condemn the show. :x

Went to meet 18/07 after that. :) Had a really good time with them. Triee is going off to USA, gonna miss her blahhhh. Hopefully bloop will be coming back soon, I really can't wait to see her I swear. (HELLO IF YOU ARE READING THIS, BETTER COME BACK SOON! AND TRIEE PLEASE TAKE CARE WHILE YOU ARE THERE!) Envy max. I don't even think that I have the chance to experience all of that. Sigh.

Anyway I WANT TO DRINK KOI, anyone? :D:D:D
Okay, SLEEP.
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Irony [May. 6th, 2010|03:27 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

How ironic, that before exams I was having hols mood and now that exams are over, I AM BORED and errr I haven't missed studying yet but I presume if this boring life continues, I might miss studying. :( I need to find a job, a commitment, whatever.

Am going back to hall to move all my stuff back and this is seriously torturous. I hate packing and unpacking things, I will dieeeeeeee. :( I need to meet up with friends, hi friends hi friends, where are you. I am bored bored bored to death and trying to keep myself sane.
Okay actually I should stop complaining. I AM GOING TO START TO MY DRAMA AGAIN! :D
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